So the last 3 weeks have been filled with milestones.
First, we went from being a family of 10 to a family of 9. And while we are all still sad at how it happened, we know that God's hand was in it, both the 4 years of caring for her, as well as her departure, and we wish nothing but the best for her.
Second, our twin baby boys are sitting up for longer then a 30 second stretch of time. They now sit up and play with toys for a long time, and stay happy for the most part, as long as Mommy doesn't walk by them without stopping to pick them up (How dare I?) and as long as they are content with their toy and not the one in their brother's hand
Third, they've also decided they no longer like the swings they've lived in for the last 8 months, but rather prefer to sleep in their crib, and now sleep through the night to the GREAT relief of their parents :)
Fourth, Gloria-Grace is peeing on the potty, and her hair is finally long enough for pigtails again. She loves having her hair done and insists on bows even if they do not match lol
Fifth, I'm enjoying the growth I see in my daughters, as they step into their God given place as mini-leaders in our home. Rhema is Cai and GG's favorite playmate, and they follow her like a shadow as she plays playdough, beads, legos, and doll house with them. Faith is growing into quite the young lady. We enjoyed her first brownies she's ever made, and she gave Judah his first bath post surgery. She is my shadow and the twins mini-mommy, and I am blessed to have them both by my side.
Lastly, and most importantly I have discovered I CAN do this. I can run an efficient household, I can joyously be around babies and children all day long and still have the time for myself, my husband, and my Savior. I have realized that it doesn't matter what people say, where we live, who likes me, who doesn't, what lies are being told...I will still remain joyous. I will not let the hurts of the past dictate my future other than to make me wiser and more compassionate to those Jesus has purposely placed in my life. I have decided to breathe, I have let the hurt and anger go, and I am filling up my lungs with completely fresh, unpolluted air of a family full of promise.
Life is full of milestones. Some stones you will look back on and remember the tears of sorrow that soaked the ground where that stone lies. Others there will be nothing but joy...the key is to choose to let those milestones sharpen you into the person you are today, and today I am me. I'm a woman, a wife, a mother, a daughter, a sister, an auntie, and a friend. I am me, and I choose to be happy :)
