I love my home, I do. But there are days (like today!) that I need to leave it all behind...leave the cooking behind, the changing diapers, the making bottles, the nursing, the correcting, the folding, the switching, the sweeping, (wait! Didn't I just sweep this floor 10 minutes ago?) the never empty sink, no matter how many times I unload and load the dishwasher...I need to step foot in the car, close the door, and drive in complete silence. Motherhood never ever ends. It's there at 3 in the morning when a little one has wandered into your room and proceeds to puke all over the place. It's there when the sun just begins to rise in the sound of two hungry boys. It's there at 10:30 at night when you are saying goodnight to your oldest. Always there. And yes I hear the voices of all the beautiful old ladies that tell me time and time again, enjoy these times, they are gone before you know it. Really? Wait...didn't I just have a huge belly? Wasn't it just yesterday when I couldn't turn over in bed without help? And now they are almost 5 months old, beginning to form personalities, smiliing all the time and even an ocasional giggle. Yes, time does go by too fast. So while I'm enjoying it, I know that in order to fully enjoy it, I need to get out once in a while away from the demands of mothering and refresh myself so that I can be a better me when I am both away from my littles and with them, cause being ME is being a Mother, a tired one, but an Excellent one. So today as soon as my daughter gets home, I'm taking a drive, the dirty floor can wait, the dishes don't mind sitting just a little bit longer, I will come back refreshed and enjoy my welcoming comittee, and their hugs will remind me why I choose to do this with my life each and every hour...
