Have I ever said....

I love being your Mom? All of you really. You all impart to me a special piece, that without you I wouldn't be whole. But tonight I'm going to focus on the 4 little men in my life.
Coco, although you ruffle my feathers multiple times a day, it's your constant hugs that put them back at rest. Your gentle ways with your new baby brothers is enough to make me forget your last offense that had me biting back my anger and wondering what had gotten into you! Watching you help me rub down with lotion your baby brother after his bath tonight had me marveling how much you're growing up into a sweet young man.
Malacai, your name means "My (Jehovah's) Messenger who rejoices" and although I know one day you will be His messenger to many, today, you are His messenger to your Mama. You make me rejoice. Your eyes are a constant reminder of God's love, as they are so full of innocence and true joy. Tonight, I told you it was time for bed, and got busy doing something else. When I remembered your bed time, I couldn't find you, and called your name. You called out in your deep voice "I'm on bed Mom". And there you were, patiently waiting for me to change and dress you. As I helped you put on your pj bottoms, and your little but strong arms wrapped so tightly around my neck, and your lips found my cheek, I quickly blinked away the tears of the joy, rejoicing in your sweet, pure love.
And now the twins...well you are just pure refreshing cuddlebugs. A true gift from above. A miracle. One baby, whose destiny will be so great, God knew you needed not just a Father, Mother, sister or brother, but an identical brother, a DNA match, someone so close you'll be able to finish eachothers sentences. Which one you started out as will always be a mystery. You split into two blessings, separated by a miraculous membrane keeping you safe...
And yes you are the reason for my exhaustion, but for now I will look beyond the endless sleepless nights, and the continuous nursing, and enjoy every sweet sigh, all the adorable stretching, the heaviness of your perfect heads as they lay on my sholders. Your tiny toes, your fingers wrapped tightly around my finger, your milky breath, your baby scented hair, and your exhausting yawns, all the adorable newborn moments I will not rush, but cherish.
There is nothing in this world capable of making me want to be anything but your Mama, for that is my destiny, my joy. Everyone of you fills a place in my heart, and are the reason for the sigh of contentment as my day is done. Can you hear it?

Happy Birthday Rhema and Coco!

10 years ago today I thought I was dying as I gave birth to my first baby. I knew labor was going to be hard, but nothing prepared me for the 23 hours of no relief. God came in that room at 525am when sapped of strength, and told csection was planned, I cried out to my Father, and in one moment, a peace flooded the room that had even the nurses crying. With one final push, out she came, a baby girl with a head full of dark hair. We named her Rhema (the spoken Word of God) Summer, because God had spoken and birthed so many things in our lives during the summer time. What a gift God gave us in Rhema! She continues to grow more lovely every year!

7 years ago today I entered the hospital in the morning to be induced, as this baby was happy camping out in mommy for an additional 2 weeks! By 2 in the afternoon after a very quick labor, I gave birth to our first son, a whoping 10 pound baby boy. He was so late, he coo-ed at his daddy while he was being weighed! He took his Dads name, which his little sisters pronounced " Coco" He truly is a mini-me of his dad, no one better for him to mirror, and today he told me he wants to play football AND be a preacher! There is no boy on earth who has as much "boy" in him and yet remains so sweet and gentle hearted. To see him with his twin baby brothers is to see true love manifested.

Happy Birthday my loves! Even though I know you don't like sharing a birthday, I know somehow your destiny is tied together... I'm truly proud to be your mother. I have no greater joy than this...